Rocky Road: Zach Miller’s 2018 Trail World Championships Reflection

Zach Miller writes about his eighth-place finish at the 2018 Trail World Championships.

By on May 18, 2018 | Comments

I love Rocky. Not Bullwinkle. Balboa. He’s not even real. He’s a fictitious movie character, but I just love that guy and all his movies. From the original to the most recent, I’m a sucker for all of them. Every. Single. One. I love that he’s the underdog. I love that he has to claw his way to the top. Sure, that first title shot was kind of a gift (the opportunity, not the outcome), but he didn’t waste it. He trained like crazy and fought with everything he had, his whole heart. In fact, that’s what I like most about him, his heart. He could get punched left and right, thrown against the ropes and beaten to within an inch of his life, but you couldn’t stop his spirit. Rocky wasn’t good because he never got hit. He was good because he kept getting up and throwing one more punch. He just kept going. He was incredible.

Now, I’m no boxer, but I spend a lot of time punching the trails with my feet. Last weekend I raced the Trail World Championships in Spain. For a while, the race went well. I hopped in the lead group and rolled through the early climbs and descents with a small contingent of runners. Sure, it didn’t always feel effortless, but it felt pretty good. Eventually I opened up a small gap. It wasn’t much, but is seemed to grow with time. Then, somewhere in one of those awkward, rocky riverbeds, I found my rhythm. As I turned out of the riverbed and climbed upward, I found what we all hope for: a groove that feels strong, smooth, and relatively fast, but not overly forced. It was great. It was fun. It was the way I like to run.

At the top of the climb, I entered a town. People lined the streets, cheering me on as I ran. I especially remember climbing a narrow staircase through an alleyway. People crowded in on both sides, yelling enthusiastically. It was like the Tour de France minus the spandex shorts. In the middle of town I stopped at an aid station, quickly filled my bottle, and continued on. Leaving town I felt good. I likely had a big smile on my face as I headed back to the trails.

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Photo: Peignée Verticale/Timothee Nalet

Unfortunately the fairy-tale feelings didn’t last forever. Somewhere around mile 38 things got drastically different. I had led for much of the day, but as Spain’s Luis Alberto Hernando and I left the Vistabella aid station together, I knew I was in trouble. I felt like I was taking punches from the formidable Ivan Drago himself. But, Luis had to be hurting too. Right? Wrong! Or at least not by the looks of him. I looked over at this monster of a man and determined that he looked fine. It was intimidating, and really impressive. How could he look that good so late in the race?

For a while I remained in second, but eventually I got caught by Christopher Clemente of Spain and Great Britain’s Tom Evans. I was feeling pretty awful when they caught me, but somehow I managed to hang on for a bit. Unfortunately it only lasted for a short while as they ran away from me around kilometer 70 to 75. Over the next 15 kilometers or so I continued to struggle, ultimately fading to eighth place.

The finish line brought an initial sense of relief. I had really been struggling over the final part of the race and was so thankful to be able to stop moving. But, amidst the relief was also a deep sense of disappointment. I had wanted so badly to hang onto the lead. Not that I thought it would be easy. I knew it was a huge task, but I wanted to give it a shot. Things went well for a while, making it seem like it might be possible. Then they fell apart.

It’s not like I haven’t been here before. I’ve raced aggressively and paid the price more than once. Each time I do it, I am well aware that it’s a gamble. I guess I’ve had the perspective that I would rather take my shot and miss it than not take it at all. In addition to this, I’ve also thought that racing aggressively may actually be my best shot at doing well.

And yet, at times, I second guess myself. I wonder if perhaps a more conservative, more calculated strategy would be better. I imagine that there are quite few folks who think my aggressive nature to be idiotic. That’s okay. I also know that there are lots of folks who express how much they like it. In fact, people like it so much that it makes it hard for me to put on the brakes. I kind of feel like I will be letting people down if I didn’t go hard from the gun.

That being said, I know that I need not worry too much about that. I had a conversation about this leading into UTMB last year. We spoke about how it seems that everyone has an opinion about how other people race. They love to critique and criticize, and they are welcome to do so. But, what must also be realized, by both the critiquer and the critiqued, is that a race belongs to the runner. Sure, there are better and worse strategies for winning races and achieving goals, but at the end of the day, the runner can play their cards however they like.

Acknowledging this concept gives me a bit of relief when considering how to approach a race. It means that I need not feel pressure to race a certain way. And this is not to say that I’ve been strategizing against my desire or will. I really like racing out front. What I am trying to express is that I, and anyone else, should have the freedom to cut their own trail. A race is not a binary thing. It is complex, dynamic, and fluid. For some, it may not even be about winning or setting PR’s, and I think that’s wonderful.

Throw it back to Rocky. Rocky didn’t necessarily train and fight the same way every single time. He didn’t even always win. Sometimes he would run the streets of Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. Other times the mountains of Russia. Even in a fight, his strategy, style, or footwork might change a bit. What remained, however, was his heart. The dude was an absolute crusher, taking and throwing punches with everything he had. The steps he took varied, but the heart with which he made them was an absolute staple. It was his trademark.

So what’s your trademark? Whether we are racing, working, volunteering, or just going about our everyday tasks, we all bring something unique to the table. That something unique, that trademark, is what really matters. Sure, winning is great and failing is hard–very hard–but I like to think that the process is more important than the outcome. This isn’t to say that I don’t care about the outcome. Winning is very addictive. It pulls at me like few things do. But at the end of the day, we must remember that there are far more important things. Tony Dungy says it well in his book Uncommon: Finding Your Path to Significance when he states that “What you do is not as important as how you do it.”

Having said this, some days you’ll miss not only your mark, but also your trademark. That’s alright. As I said earlier, races are not binary and neither is life. We shouldn’t beat ourselves up too much for the times that we fail. In fact, we will probably get a lot farther in life if we are willing to fail. So take your trademark and weave it amongst the things that you do. Remember that life is fluid and outcomes are uncertain, but the way we swim through it is what truly matters. At times it will stink. It will get really hard. And it won’t be fun. When that happens, channel your inner Rocky, pull yourself back up, stay true to your trademark, and throw one more punch, because how you do it is what matters most.

Call for Comments (from Meghan)

  • What’s your trademark?
  • What is it about you that makes you who you are?
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Photo: Peignée Verticale/Timothee Nalet

Zach Miller
Zach Miller lives in a school bus he outfitted himself. He competes for The North Face and Team Colorado. Additional sponsors/supporters include Clean-N-Jerky, GU Energy Labs, and Nathan Sports. Follow him on Instagram.